This is me tonight.  Just like that.  My heart hurt so much that my eyes cried.  The words came out without me even knowing it would.  Without planning.  Without thinking.  I couldn’t stop until the crying forced me to.

I don’t know if it will change anything.  I don’t know if it was heard.  I don’t know if it will bring a change in our relationship.  I don’t know if what I said was right or wrong but clearly I had no control over that.  It just poured out.  The words and the tears.

I know I cried and wanted to be held and wanted my world to be fixed.  

Sometimes you don’t get all that you want.  But you have to live in hope.