Exposed nerves

I feel as though all my nerves are exposes.  Anxiety is a horrible thing.  All my nerve endings are in overdrive.  Everything I experience today feels as though it is multiplied by a zillion.  I feel nervous and generally not myself.

I finally renewed my gym membership today.  I haven’t been to the gym in ooohhhhh forever three months.  I can’t believe it’s been three months!  I’m pretty sure I’ll feel a bit calmer once I’m at the gym and getting rid of some of my cropped up emotion or whatever it is that is making me feel like something bad is going to happen.   That is of course if I actually manage to breath once I’m back on the step machine.

 

 

It’s out!!!!

We spent all afternoon working on this tooth. We really didn’t want the dentist to have to pull it and just did all we could to wiggle it and get it lose.

We actually took turns! and finally tonight I pulled it out. He didn’t even realize I had pulled it. He was still waiting for me to keep on wiggling it.

Yay to my big boy for reaching yet another milestone! (Finally)

 

Market day at school

My little entrepreneur.

I stood there.  Looking at you selling your goods to these kids, so much older than you. You are still just a little boy and they are so much bigger. They could so easily be intimidating, yet you had no anxiety…no fear. You stood there and managed your little shop as though you have been doing this for years.

I’m so proud of you.

Quintus’ school had a market day today. You get to ‘rent’ a space, where you can set up your shop. Quintus wanted to do this last year already but I felt he was too little I still think that lol but this year we decided to give it a go.

My folks went through a lot of trouble to get him the stock (it helps that they have a shop hey!) and to help us set up everything. From there he pretty much did his thing and I am very proud. I don’t think I would have been able to do something like that when I was a kid.

I love that he wants to do that. That he has such great self-confidence. That he has a business mind at such a young age.

JJ spent his money to buy me and my mom gifts. He is such a sweet natured little boy.

Gotta love these little guys of mine.

 

Do not go there

Kids weren’t invited to my cousins wedding last weekend.  They offered to have a babysitter look after the kids but I don’t know this person AT ALL and my kids have never stayed with a babysitter.  I sure wasn’t going to let them stay with I-don’t-know-how-many-other-kids with a babysitter I dont’ know.

From the beginning I said that I was not going to stay too long.  Tommie was at the guesthouse alone with the boys and I know that Zander doesn’t go to sleep easily if I’m not with him. 

I greeted the family including the bride’s sister (who also has a daughter aged 3) .  She wanted to know why we were leaving so early (it was 8:30 pm and the wedding started at 3:00 pm already).  I explained to her that Zander doesn’t like going to sleep without me and would just be giving Tommie a hard time.  “Oh you spoil them too much” she said.

I spoil them too much?  I of course jumping on my high horse replied with “No I just love them”

I mean come on.  My kids weren’t with me.  I wanted to go back to them.  I wanted to make sure Zander goes to sleep easily.  I didn’t want to be at the wedding without my husband even though I think the wedding was stunning and relaxed and probably one of the nicest I have ever been to.

We are different.  She doesn’t mind leaving her little girl in the care of someone she doesn’t really know.  I do.  Don’t judge me on that and say I spoil my kids.  Don’t go there.