Super Mom

Just so sad

Yesterday I was working a bit later than normal, when I got a phone call from Tommie.

“Where are you?”

“Still at work but I’m leaving now”

“I don’t think you should come home.  I drove over Benji”

I couldn’t breath….”Is he dead”

“Yes”

I just threw the phone down, told my parents who heard me over the phone and drove home.  I was home in what felt like seconds.  I found Tommie standing by Benji.  Crying.  I made sure he was dead…not just badly injured.  But he was…he was dead.

I stood by him and just cried until my legs could hold me no more.  I sat there and cried until I knew that we had to bury him.  Tommie was frozen.  I could see that he didn’t know what to do.  I think he was completely unsure of how I would react.  Would I blame him?  Scream at him?  I could not.  I walked inside and just cried.  Hugged a pillow and cried.

I’m sorry I didn’t come home sooner.  He wouldn’t have run out.  I’m just so very very sad.

I took this photo of him only 2 weeks ago.

I’m going to miss him so very much.  We only got him less than a year ago.  Such a very very short time.  I want him back.  I want yesterday back. . . .

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27 responses

  1. Mom Archer

    Melany I am so terribly sad for you for this loss of such a wonderful companion. I loved Benji also and won’t ever get over losing him like that.
    I know Tommie feels so sad and bad I’m glad you didn’t blame him for this. I do know where you are coming from wanting yesterday back. If only we could do that and fix everything that went wrong.
    I am here if you need me for anything at all. Just give me a shout please

    All my Love

    Mom

    xxxx

    August 16, 2008 at 2:40 pm

  2. Mel Dad

    Bok I just say ditto what Mom said. We are flattened. I think my heart sopped fo a bit with that phone call.

    August 16, 2008 at 2:45 pm

  3. Oh Melany. I’m speechless. Just in shock. My heart breaks with you dear. I am SO terribly sorry for this loss.

    My thoughts and prayers are with you. HUGS!

    August 16, 2008 at 3:37 pm

  4. Mel ~ I am SO sad for you. What a terrible day.

    You’ll be in my thoughts & prayers. I’m so sorry for this terrible loss.

    Godspeed Benji

    August 16, 2008 at 4:38 pm

  5. OH my goodness. I’m SO SO SO sorry to hear about Benji. As someone who’s lost 2 dogs in less than 3 years, I really really understand how much pain youre in right now.

    You must have some really wonderful memories of him.

    August 16, 2008 at 4:47 pm

  6. I’m so so sorry Mel 😦

    August 16, 2008 at 4:52 pm

  7. I’m so very sorry for your loss…

    August 16, 2008 at 5:07 pm

  8. I’m so, so sorry. (((HUGS)))

    August 16, 2008 at 5:16 pm

  9. Oh that makes me so very sad. I’m so sorry.

    August 16, 2008 at 6:06 pm

  10. Oh Mel, I am sooo sorry. Nothing will make it better for a while and I am sure Tommie feels as bad as if not worse than you do right now. I hope the boys will be ok. Sending hugs and love your way.

    August 16, 2008 at 11:10 pm

  11. my3boysandi

    Im so sori Mel
    It can be really hard
    how are the boys?
    all my thoughts and prayers are with you all
    MASSIVE HUGS

    August 17, 2008 at 12:25 am

  12. I am so so so sorry to hear of your loss Mel. I too have lost pets and still miss them. There is truly nothing that anyone can say that will make you feel better but I hope the tears dry soon. Hugs to you, they boys and your husband.

    August 17, 2008 at 1:05 am

  13. I am crying with you as I read this post. I am sooo sorry for your loss.

    August 17, 2008 at 4:49 am

  14. kaylee2

    HUGS TO YOU SORRY 😦

    August 17, 2008 at 5:58 am

  15. I’m so sad for you all. I’m crying reading this.

    August 17, 2008 at 9:30 am

  16. bigmama

    I had just shown Benji’s picture to my kids last week on your post…we have a black pug and is very fond of those squashed nose
    dogs…I couldn’t even breath as I read your blog…I too wish I could make the time role back for you…I will be thinking and praying for all of you…and crying with you as well…

    August 17, 2008 at 1:18 pm

  17. expensivemistakescheapthrills

    oh god that’s terrible.

    sorry to hear that!

    the pic of him is stunning. brought a tear to my eye, and it’s very hard (actually I lie) to get me to well up…

    August 17, 2008 at 3:25 pm

  18. Cheryl

    Aw Mel. So very sorry for you and Tommie and the boys. Loosing a pet is terrible.

    August 17, 2008 at 5:45 pm

  19. Wenchy

    Ag Mel, ek is so baie baie baie baie baie jammer – vreeslik en so.

    Baie 😦

    August 17, 2008 at 8:22 pm

  20. Oh no…. I am so sorry.

    What a sweetie he was.

    Please don’t cry..no cry it will make you feel better. So sorry.

    August 17, 2008 at 9:33 pm

  21. Kimberly

    Melany…I am so sorry about Benji. I wish there was something I could do or that I could give you a hug IRL. (((HUGS)))

    Kim

    August 18, 2008 at 2:53 pm

  22. somayya

    so sorry to hear this!!! baie baie jammer

    August 18, 2008 at 4:18 pm

  23. orangeninja76

    Oh honey, I’m so sorry! This sucks bigtime. I want to give you a hug, but a virtual one will have to do.

    Many many hugs.

    August 19, 2008 at 5:06 am

  24. Oh sorry Mel… Shame man this must be devastating. *HUGS*

    August 19, 2008 at 7:35 pm

  25. Oh no! I’m so sorry. That just hurts.

    August 20, 2008 at 7:22 am

  26. Courtney

    Oh, Melany….
    5 years ago almost to this very day my husband hit our beloved Sheltie Massimo…my husband was late for work and ran out the door to the car…Massimo followed him…he didn’t see him run in front of the SUV…and I heard it. Suffice it to say, screaming, yelling, crying, blaming….just sadness. So I can relate to the pain you are feeling. I am so terribly sorry.
    Courtney

    August 20, 2008 at 9:05 pm

  27. Hay

    Oh no. I loved the little cutie too. So sorry for your loss Melany.

    August 26, 2008 at 12:08 pm

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