Just so sad
Yesterday I was working a bit later than normal, when I got a phone call from Tommie.
“Where are you?”
“Still at work but I’m leaving now”
“I don’t think you should come home. I drove over Benji”
I couldn’t breath….”Is he dead”
I just threw the phone down, told my parents who heard me over the phone and drove home. I was home in what felt like seconds. I found Tommie standing by Benji. Crying. I made sure he was dead…not just badly injured. But he was…he was dead.
I stood by him and just cried until my legs could hold me no more. I sat there and cried until I knew that we had to bury him. Tommie was frozen. I could see that he didn’t know what to do. I think he was completely unsure of how I would react. Would I blame him? Scream at him? I could not. I walked inside and just cried. Hugged a pillow and cried.
I’m sorry I didn’t come home sooner. He wouldn’t have run out. I’m just so very very sad.
I took this photo of him only 2 weeks ago.
I’m going to miss him so very much. We only got him less than a year ago. Such a very very short time. I want him back. I want yesterday back. . . .