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Maybe

Maybe I’m just having that end of the year depression.

Maybe it’s the holiday that was really stressful (yeah, go figure)

Maybe it’s the little boy who drowned in my pool.

Maybe it’s the reaction of certain people.  The lack of emotion.  The total lack of empathy.

Maybe it’s watching his family come here and pray for him.

Maybe it’s realizing that I’m not that good a mom these days.

Maybe it’s the fact that people don’t keep their word.

Maybe it’s the lack of finances.

Maybe it’s a whole lot of things.

It’s not nice though.  No Merry Christmas feeling. 

Just anxiety. 

Almost feel like I should just put a bandage on my own emotion and make it go away.

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14 responses

  1. *HUGE HUGS MEL*

    I can relate a little.

    So much has happened this year and I feel pretty defeated. I know I need to go on and I will, but sometimes you want to just throw your hands up and give up.

    I think feeling down is normal considering what’s happened. *hugs*

    December 21, 2009 at 11:07 pm

    • You have been going through a very tough time and even though you are so in control of your life and seem so ‘together’, I know there are times that things are very tough. I always think of you

      > —–Original Message—– >

      December 22, 2009 at 6:21 pm

  2. Gen

    Ag jinne Mel – I hope your spirits will lift soon – Take Care!

    December 22, 2009 at 12:01 am

  3. So hard to mourn during the holidays. Be okay with the feeling not-okay. And take joy in the little beautiful moments that will inevitably breakthrough.

    December 22, 2009 at 12:52 am

  4. Sorry you feeling so down, Mel. Sometimes things are so unfair. Hope you feel back to yourself soon.

    December 22, 2009 at 8:29 am

  5. I totally understand how you feel. Many people feel down at this time of year.

    You know what helped me? Making a list of things I was grateful for, as well as a list of goals for next year (not resolutions, but big hairy audacious goals), and then daydreaming about actually achieving all of them.

    Sometimes all we need to feel better is to escape into our imaginations for awhile, especially when the real things around us bring us down.

    It will help you shift your reality, and you really will feel better I promise!

    December 22, 2009 at 11:12 am

  6. Moaning Myrtle

    Don’t like hearing you like this. Big hug! You are an excellent mom! xx

    December 22, 2009 at 12:42 pm

  7. ((HUGS)) Mel

    December 22, 2009 at 3:40 pm

  8. I am sorry you are feeling that way 😦

    Father Christmas may just sprinkle some hope over your home on Friday! Keep the faith 🙂

    December 22, 2009 at 8:34 pm

  9. Wishing you and your family a very Merry Christmas

    Mike
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    December 23, 2009 at 9:05 pm

    • Merry Christmas to you as well Mike

      > —–Original Message—– >

      December 25, 2009 at 9:06 am

  10. I totally get it!! ((hugs)) Mel!

    December 23, 2009 at 11:30 pm

  11. Wenchy

    What happened to you IS overwhelming in itself. I would have sat in the corner… for a very very long time.

    I love you my friend. x

    December 24, 2009 at 9:08 am

  12. Addie

    I feel that way too and I haven’t even experienced what you have in the last few days …

    December 25, 2009 at 10:44 am

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