Look, we are blessed beyond words. I have more things to be thankful for than I can count. If I had to make a list, the scale would fall over on the side of blessed.
Why then, do I feel like this?
Maybe because my back is extremely sore?
Maybe because Zander cried this morning
and every other morning when I dropped him off at school? No, crying is not the right word….grabbing on to my jersey (it’s cold already!?) and me having to pull away even as I want to just pick him up and walk away?
Maybe because Oncology is not the kind of ward in the hospital I ever thought I would go to?
I don’t know what it is. But it must just keep moving right on out of my life. I do not appreciate feeling like this.
So I must smile and wave.
And be thankful.
See….me smiling ….. no that didn’t work.