Super Mom

2018

Oh 2018, if you were a human I would tell you to fuck off. Not good to see you go. Not bye. Just fuck off.

It has been, without a doubt, the toughest year of my life.

My poor body. What a fight it had to fight to make it to the end of this year. Rounds and rounds of chemo, chemo allergy, hospitalization, blood thinner injections, blood tests, sonars, xrays, MRI, radiations, operations, burns… The list is longer than I wish to remember. It was no walk in the park and in all honesty it is still not. My breast still hurts, my legs are in constant pain (sometimes agony) and my feet are permanently sore. All thanks to the side effects of my last chemo.

Emotionally I’m not in a good place. I’ve had some serious parenting downs and after finishing my cancer treatment I’ve been emotional. I don’t know why, I just am.

I’ve come to realize that people I thought would be there for me, would not. They did not support me in the way I deserved and they should have.

There were obviously some good times and good people who came into my life. For that I am thankful. I’m still alive and in remission (as is my mom) and for that I’m hugely thankful. I have a special, very honest and open relationship with my children. Different from most parents I think and for that I’m thankful.

2018… Off you will fuck.

One response

  1. Isabel

    Cut yourself some slack lady – you just went to hell and back! 😦 Your kids on the surface seem to be normal and healthy so you very definitely didn’t screw them up too much and let the people who should have supported you and didn’t go play on the highway (in the fast lane)! You do you and keep on being the wonderful woman that you are! XOXO

    January 27, 2019 at 3:05 pm

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