Super Mom

I thought I’d lost you

Zander, for a moment, minutes an eternity I thought I’d lost you.  That I would never see you alive again.

For minutes your brothers and I searched for you.  Grown men were out looking for you.  Surfers looking for you.

I was frantic.  I couldn’t see you.  I couldn’t see your surf board.  I couldn’t see your blue shirt and black pants.  I couldn’t see you my little boy.  Mommy thought you had drowned.  I can’t even say that.  Typing it feels wrong.

I had seen you less than a minute before.  I was certain you were with your brothers, like you were all the time.  When Jason walked up to me to say you are missing, I thought he was joking….yet I knew he would ‘t joke about something like that. 

I ran into the sea.  Not worrying to check my pockets for valuables since my most valuable was in the water.  And I couldn’t see you.  Your brothers couldn’t see you.  We thought that you were under the  water.  Fighting for your life.  Or pulled into the sea, fighting to swim out. 

I was frantic.  I didn’t know what to do.  I couldn’t calm my heart.  I couldn’t hide my fear. 

The lifeguards were off duty.  The beach was almost deserted.  How could I not see you? 

Relieve ….. a mom came up to me and said that she had taken a little boy in black pants to his dad.  He got stung by a bluebottle. 

I ran up, not wanting to waste any time.  What if it’s not you?  What if you are still in the water.  Yet there you were.  My little boy.  Crying.  In pain.  But there to cry.  I was so thankful.  So so thankful.

I ran down to let your brothers know you were save.  I barely thanked the people helping us look for you because I wanted to hold you in my arms.

I love you.

Please don’t do that to me again.

9 responses

  1. Oh my heavens!! How terrifying 😦 So glad it ended well!!!

    December 20, 2012 at 7:57 pm

  2. tM010650

    I can just imagine what you went through. I am so thankful he was safe You must have grown older in those few minutes xxxx

    December 20, 2012 at 9:56 pm

  3. Jen

    how VERY scary
    pleased he was ok
    praying for me please I have lost my boy to his dad at the moment 😦

    December 20, 2012 at 10:14 pm

    • How long will he be there Jen? My heart goes out to you

      December 20, 2012 at 10:35 pm

  4. How very scary! I have lost a child for a few minutes like that. Your heart stops. It is like you are living in a parallel universe – or through the looking glass. Seconds seem like hours. I am so glad you found him safe! I am sorry he had to endure a jelly sting. But at least you have him back in you arms.

    December 21, 2012 at 12:13 am

  5. That must have been terrifying! Glad he’s okay.

    December 22, 2012 at 7:25 am

  6. Oh my gosh how utterly terrifying!! I would have been in hysterics!

    December 23, 2012 at 12:47 am

  7. Woweeeee, so scary! I know that feeling. Oh man. So glad he is safe!

    Thanks for visiting my blog! 😀

    December 24, 2012 at 9:39 am

  8. ourcountry

    Damn it that war terrible!

    December 25, 2012 at 1:20 pm

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